I’ve been super busy actually living so I feel like I haven’t even had time to think, let alone write, in the past couple of weeks.  After Greece (I did go to Athens but there are no pictures worth posting) I went to Italy to visit a friend for a few days, which was amazing but really tiring, and now I’m back in London. For most of August I’ll be in Prague with all my old friends, so I can’t wait for that. Hopefully there WILL be pictures from there.

Now that I feel I’ve had a sufficient amount of time to lie on the couch with my computer doing nothing productive I can get started with this blog again. I know I’m only halfway through my holiday, but the past few weeks have gone by so fast that I feel like summer’s already ending. I’m not ready for it to end. I feel like I’ve had the most balanced summer this year – I’ve read a few books, lazed around at the beach, spent time with my friends, done some reckless stuff – so it’s not like I feel I’m spending my time the wrong way, but there are some things I thought I’d make time for that I haven’t yet – doing more writing, art, and, of course, the schoolwork that I am cramming into the last week. I am dreading September, because it means not only going back to boarding school, but also loads of IB work, uni applications, admissions tests, and just a seemingly infinite list of things to worry about.

So, the only thing that can get me even remotely excited for fall (other than the fact that I’m turning 18!) are cloooothes. I’ve fallen in love with Hel Looks and have been going through their archives obsessively for the past few days. I love the aesthetic of Scandinavian style – the unexpected silhouettes, natural textures, muted palettes. I think fall is the perfect season for it, and I think I’m gonna be spending a lot of my time in puffy sweaters and baggy jackets and coats. Here are a few of my random favorites:

Credits: http://hel-looks.com/



I’m in Greece at the moment, at a resort that feels totally dead. It’s not peaceful or relaxing, just eerily empty with nothing to do. I’ve spent most of my time lazing around at the beach, reading, and trying to run in the heat. I’ve actually been quite productive though, I’ve read three books in a little over a week – Death of a Salesman, Middlesex and Tender is the Night. Also, I have gotten up before 10 every single day, which is the biggest achievement for me because I love sleeping in. 

We were supposed to go to Athens yesterday but we didn’t because of the strike, so we’re going tomorrow instead. I’ve never been there so I’m really excited to go, I’ll take lots of photos! There are also huge sales in shops now so I’ll also post photos of any clothes I buy. 



Last week I went to see Before Midnight in the cinema and I absolutely loved it. For those that aren’t familiar with it, it’s the the third installment in Richard Linklater’s trilogy – the first two are Before Sunrise and Before Sunset. Each shows a day in the life of of Celine and Jesse with a spacing of 9 years, from their first encounter on a train in their 20’s all the way to their family holiday in Greece in their 40’s.

Each of the films is amazing in its own right, but this one stands out because it definitively abandons the traditional fairytale romance formula for a realistic depiction of a relationship. There is no happily-ever-after for Jesse and Celine. There are moments of beauty, but there is also ugliness – how cruel they can be, the lengths they go to to hurt each other (“I don’t think I love you anymore,” Celine says at one point).

The movie ends with a tentative truce. They are tired of fighting, for now. But you know the fight they had was just a variation on an ongoing theme, and it hasn’t finished yet. There’s no way of telling whether they’ll work through their problems, or whether the next installment (which will hopefully be made, in 9 years time!) will see them go their own separate ways.

A lot of people seem to think the movie is depressing. I didn’t see it that way. I think that the fact that Jesse and Celine were willing to have this fight is in itself hopeful – it shows they still care. The alternative would have been apathy, which is much bleaker. Or maybe I’m just an angry person and I “see anger as a positive emotion,” like Celine. My aunt, who watched it with me, said it was the most boring movie she’d ever seen. If the prospect of 90 minutes of pretty much nonstop dialogue doesn’t excite you, you’ll probably agree. Otherwise, go watch it!

Has anyone seen the movie? What did you think of it?

I am bad at committing to things – even things that I enjoy. That includes blogging. So, having first started this blog a year ago, I’m giving it another go now.

I’m 17. I’m Russian, technically. I spend most of my time in boarding school in England, though, and the rest in London. I like to talk about lots of things – books, movies, fashion, feminism. I’m a fan of Rookie. I like to read, and write, when I’m not too lazy.

I guess we’ll see where this will go!